Friday, January 9, 1970

5. A Life Built Together in Canada (1970-1972)

1. First Steps in Canada: A New Beginning (1970)

When I arrived in Montreal on May 30, 1970, André welcomed me with the joy of a man who had waited a lifetime. For a brief week we stayed with his sister Monique and her husband Jacques, whose warmth helped ease the shock of stepping into a completely new world.

André's mother and father

Soon, however, André had to return to his work in Gatineau, leaving me alone with Monique and Jacques. Those days were difficult. I had newly arrived in a foreign country, unsure in both French and English, separated from my family, and navigating the end of my former religious life. I felt vulnerable and painfully alone. Yet André wrote to me every single day and came to see me on weekends, and his tenderness gave me the courage to begin again.

On June 23, 1970, we were married civilly in Montréalour second wedding, our first public declaration of lifelong union. The Canadian government required that a civil marriage be celebrated within thirty days of arrival as a condition for my admission to Canada under a dependent spouse visa. André's sister Monique and her husband Jacques stood as witnesses.

Our material life was humble, but our happiness was overflowing. After a year of struggle and oceans between us, we were finally building a life side by side. And with Odette, André’s kind and loving sister, living nearby, I felt supported in this new land.

2. A simple Life, But Happiness Beyond Measure

We began our married life in simplicity and poverty. We had brought nothing from our former religious lives and accepted nothing from our families. We were living in the first rented André's small one bedroom basement on 57A Caron Street in Hull, and later in an apartment on the 9th floor of 215 Muchmore Street. André's mother had lent us $200 to buy basic furniturea set we still cherish today.

Soon, I became pregnant. we went together for monthly checkups on Daly Street in Ottawa. In December, 1970, André received the official laicization documents from Rome, making him free at last to marry in the Church.

3. The Church Wedding: March 7, 1971

On March 7, 1971, we were married in the Church in the chapel of the cathedral, St. Rédempteur parish in Hull, completing our union spiritually and sacramentally. Odette and René served as our witnesses. This was our third and final weddingthe one that sealed our vocation of love before God.


André’s joy that day was profound. He held my hand with an emotion shaped by years of longing, sacrifice, and unwavering fidelity. For him, the journey that began at EAPI, survived interrogations, separation, uncertainty, and nearly impossible obstacles, had finally been blessed.

4. Éric’s Birth and Becoming a Family (1971)

Every month André accompanied me to see Dr. Richard at his clinic on Daly Street. Those visits, and André’s attentive care, helped me feel grounded in a world still unfamiliar.

On April 17, 1971, having reached full term, André drove me to the General Hospital in Ottawa. During labor, the nurse panicked and ran to call the doctor. Dr. Richard arrived in haste and performed a Caesarean section. André was deeply anxious, but the moment he saw our newborn son, Eric, his joy was indescribable.

Éric was baptized at St. Rédempteur Parish in Hullthe same church where we had been married in the Catholic tradition. He was a beautiful baby: bright-eyed, expressive, gentle. In those early months, André shared all the housework, helped with laundry, changed diapers, and took tender care of both mother and child. These early gesturessimple, loving, and constantlaid the foundation for a marriage built on true partnership and mutual respect.

Odette, GodmotherMammieRené, Godfather

5. André’s Work with CCIC and CIDA (1971–1972)

When André returned to Canada in 1969 after EAPI, he worked briefly at the Canadian Council for International Co-operation (CCIC) in Ottawa. His linguistic abilities, his formation as a Jesuit, and his cross-cultural insight were immediately noticed.

In 1971, life opened a new door when he was hired by the Canadian International Development Agency (CIDA) as ghost writer for CIDA President, Paul Gérin-Lajoie. This was the beginning of a remarkable twenty-six-year career marked by international postings, diplomatic responsibilities, and deep contributions to development work across continents.

The new job brought a stable income and a sense of security after years of poverty and uncertainty. It allowed us to dream beyond survival and imagine a future with room for growth, generosity, and opportunity.

6. A New Home on Doucet Street

With André’s new position and Éric’s arrival, we were able to purchase our first homea modest house at 132 Doucet Street in Hull (Gatineau), Québec. It became the heart of our early Canadian life. Slowly, piece by piece, we furnished it with care and gratitude. It was simple, humble, filled with warmtha place where Éric would take his first steps and where we would shape our first memories as a young family.

7. Becoming Fully Canadian

These years were marked by quiet transformation. I learned French, adjusted to long Canadian winters, discovered new styles of cooking, and mastered the rhythm of Western housekeeping. I cared for Éric with patience and tenderness and built a peaceful home grounded in affection and mutual respect.

People noticed my gentleness, my discipline, and my spiritual depth. Our marriage flourished. André adored me, and I supported him with love, stability, and faith. Together, we formed a marriage that was both intimate and resilient.

8. Looking Ahead: International Life Begins

By the end of 1972, André’s career at CIDA was progressing rapidly. International opportunities were emerging, and soon a major posting was proposed: Saigon, Vietnam.

It meant stepping into diplomatic life, into a war-torn region, into an entirely new world. It also meant that our family would grow again, with the birth of our second child, Marc, during this period abroad. The posting promised challengesdanger, cultural adjustment, uncertaintybut also extraordinary experiences and deep personal growth.

Our journey, which had taken me from Reddipalem to Hyderabad, to the United States, Rome, Manila, and then to Canada, was now preparing to stretch even further.

André was excited. We felt fear mixed with faithbut above all, love gave us courage.

Thursday, January 8, 1970

4. Separation, Struggle, and Triumph (1969-1970)

1. Returning to India: Painful Separation and Uncertainty (April 1969)

On April 14, 1969, Sr. Selegrina and I left Manila and the EAPI community to return to India via Hong Kong. Saying goodbye to André at the Manila airport was almost unbearable. As I boarded the plane, I felt as though my heart were being torn apart. In his first letter after my departure, André wrote:

“Immense pain! My Angel, my wife and love, I adore you.
We will manage. We will be together FOREVER.”

A day or two later, he also left Manila to return to Canada. Each of us was heading back to our religious institutions with only one hope guiding us: that, through honorable and proper channels, we would eventually be released from our communitiesfree to unite our lives forever. But we knew that before reaching that joy, a long and difficult valley lay ahead.

Angel and Selegrina

2. Back in Reddipalem: A Life in Limbo

When I returned to the Mother House in Reddipalem, Mother Enriquetta welcomed us warmly. She trusted me, respected my abilities, and believed I would continue to serve the congregation well. Yet I carried within me an immense interior struggle. I knew I had to make a monumental decision, one that would alter the entire course of my life.

I wished to leave the congregation with dignitynever abruptly, never deceitfully. Before departing, I wanted to give the best of myself in gratitude for all the kindness I had received. I updated the congregation’s Rules and Regulations, designed a new religious habit that was approved during my stay, and fulfilled every responsibility with full dedication. At the same time, André wrote to me almost daily. His letters, filled with tenderness, courage, and unwavering devotion, reached me secretlyoften through my parents’ home or my friend Anasuya’s house.

But soon, everything changed.

3. Mother General Confiscates André’s Letters

One day, the postman mistakenly delivered one of André’s letters directly to Mother General rather than to my parents. Although she knew English, she asked another sister to read it aloud. The content revealed everything: our love, our suffering, our hope, and our longing to be united forever.

Realizing the depth of our relationship, she immediately acted. She bribed the postman to bring her all letters addressed to me. For a time, she succeededsix of André’s letters were intercepted and kept from me. I could see sadness and fear in her face; she felt she was losing me, one of the sisters she was fond of and trusted most. She even showed the letters to several priests, who quickly understood the profound sincerity of our bond.

From that moment on, she watched me constantly.

4. Retreats and Spiritual Discernment

Both André and I entered a period of intense spiritual discernment. We prayed and sought counsel with openness of heart. Mother General wrote to my aunt, Sr. Scholastica, and to my uncle priest, Fr. Thomas, hoping they would persuade me to remain in the congregation.

Their replies, however, surprised her. They wrote gently but firmly:

“God’s hand is on her.
He has a different plan for her.
Release her with dignity.”

Their words gave me great strength. I felt supported by grace, by family, and by the truth within my heart.

5. The Letter I was Not Allowed to Send

I pleaded with Mother General to allow me to send one letter to Andrésimply so he would not fear that something terrible had happened if my letters stopped. She agreed, or so it seemed. I wrote a heartfelt letter, gave it to her, and trusted that she would mail it.

Later, while helping clean her room, I found my letter torn into pieces in the wastebasket. She had never sent it. That discovery left a deep wound, one that stayed with me for many years.

6. A Sign from God and the Bishop’s Decision

In September 1969, Mother General brought me to Warangal to see Bishop Alfonso Beretta, the Bishop of Warangal, who alone had the authority to release me, since the congregation was diocesan at the time. She still hoped the bishop would persuade me to stay.

But as I was preparing to leave in the jeep to meet the bishop, my brother Lourdhu came running toward me and whispered:

“Anasuya received a letter for you from André.”

For me, this was the precise sign I had begged God for. I had prayed:

“If at least one letter comes from André today,
I will leave the congregation.
If not, I will stay.”

And the letter came.

Bishop Beretta received me with kindness and understanding. He told me he respected my integrity, approved my release, wished me the very best, and would even offer me a teaching job if I chose to stay in India. He also encouraged Mother General to release me with dignity.

I returned to the convent with mixed feelingssorrow for leaving a way of life I had lived for twelve years, and joy for following a love that God Himself had placed in my heart.

Eventually, it was time to leave. Mother General and the sisters were deeply saddened, and I also felt torn as I left. That moment has remained with me, and my connection to the congregation continued.  

7. Home Again: Mixed Emotions and Family Resistance

I went home with my brother to Reddipalem, where my family welcomed me with affection, concern, and confusion. Many relatives and villagers warned me:

“Your decision is very risky.”

My mother cried often. She feared that I would be alone in Canada, that Western marriages were unstable, and that I would suffer far from home. My family struggled to understand why I had left the convent and why I wished to marry a foreignersomething unheard of in our village and in our entire clan.

But André’s letters, filled with sincerity and respect, slowly changed their hearts.

8. André’s Efforts from Canada

During these months, André was undergoing his own trials in Canada. He returned to his Jesuit community, informed his Provincial of his decision, and began the complex process of requesting laicization from Rome. He worked at St. Jerome College and later at the Canadian Council for International Co-operation (CCIC) in Ottawa while preparing his family to accept the new path he had chosen.

The procedure to leave the Jesuit order was long, emotionally exhausting, and filled with uncertainty. Yet André remained steady, courageous, and filled with hopealways reassuring me that our future together was worth every sacrifice.

9. The 107 Letters: A Year of Love Across Oceans

Between April 1969 and May 1970, André wrote 107 letters to melong, tender, poetic letters written on thin blue aerogram paper, usually five to seven pages each. Sometimes they contained two or three different dates; he numbered them from 1 to 94, with some numbers repeated.

He called me:

My Angel
My wife
My love
My life
My all
My Indian pearl
My golden treasure
My beautiful queen
My unique, adorable Angel
My star
Almost my God
The pulse of my being
The beat of my heart

These names revealed the depth of his emotional intelligence, his poetic soul, and his complete devotion. My letters to him were fewer and more modest; I had little paper, few stamps, and no privacy. But every time he received one, he answered with tenderness and courage.

His letters sustained me. They were my lifeline.


10. Preparing for Canada: A Family Transformed

Slowly, through André’s respectful letters to my mother, my brothers, and my brother-in-law, their fears turned to acceptance. My brother-in-law became one of my strongest supporters. My mother collected money owed to her so she could give it to me for the passport journey. My father spoke gently and approvingly. My sister Mary asked her husband to buy me gold jewelry. Even relatives and neighbors who had doubted my choices now stood behind me.

November, 1969

With my brother accompanying me, I traveled to Madras to apply for my passport. We stayed there several days. Meanwhile, André arranged everything with the Canadian High Commission for my visa.

Finally, on May 30, 1970, with my family and village giving me their blessings, I boarded the flight to Montreal.

Wednesday, January 7, 1970

3. The World Opens — USA, Rome, Philippines, and a Great Love Story (1964-1969)

1. America (1964–1968): A New World and a New Mind

In 1964, a decision by Mother Enriquetta changed the course of my life: she selected me, together with Sr. Selegrina from my batch, to pursue higher studies in the United States. Through the generosity of the Sisters of Mercy, we received full scholarships that covered our travel, tuition, room and board, and all personal expenses. We were admitted to Salve Regina College in Newport, Rhode Island, where we would spend the next four years completing our Bachelor of Arts degrees.

During our stay, we lived with the Sisters of Mercy and became part of their community. Their kindness, openness, and hospitality expanded my understanding of religious life on a global scale. I chose to major in Mathematics, partly because my father had always believed in my aptitude for the subject, and because I had earned high marks in school. I studied closely with my Chinese classmate, Annette Chai Hong, and formed friendships with other students, including Susanne Bouchard.

Life in Newport offered many memorable experiences: my first sight of snow on November 5, 1964; the warm guidance of Sr. Rosalia, our dean; the spiritual companionship of Fr. Reilly, the chaplain; and the presence of sisters from Kerala and Thailand who shared our residence. I spent countless hours in the beautiful library and attended daily Mass in a small chapel known as the “mirror hall.” One Sister of Mercy generously lent me her typewriter whenever I needed to write essaysa gesture I never forgot.

In 1966, moved by Indira Gandhi’s rise as Prime Minister of India, I wrote to her a letter of congratulations. To my astonishment, she replied, her note became one of my treasured keepsakes. During our years in America, we also received a visit from Sr. Bethina and Sr. Tharcissia, who were then studying in New York.

The first year in the United States was marked by homesickness, but by the second year I felt strong, confident, and intellectually renewed. Exposure to Western ideas, new disciplines, and diverse perspectives widened my interior world. In 1968, after four years of dedicated study, I completed my BA in Mathematicsand carried home with me a broadened mind and a more mature spirit.

2. Rome, India, and the Path to EAPI (1968)

After graduation in June 1968, we traveled to Washington, D.C. to spend a week with Sr. Joseta of the Better World Movement, the organization that had coordinated our scholarships. She welcomed us warmly and arranged our return travel to India through Rome.

When we arrived in Rome, an unexpected intervention transformed our plans. Fr. Tibourtious Raj, our former parish priest from Reddipalem who was then studying Canon Law in Rome, stepped in with decisive influence. He arranged for us to stay three weeks in the city with the Ursuline Sisters and helped me reconnect with my childhood friend, Sr. Eliza, who was also studying there.

More significantly, he persuaded the authorities to send me and Sr. Selegrina to the East Asian Pastoral Institute (EAPI) in the Philippines for a specialized program in pastoral and psychological studies. He secured our visas, organized our flight tickets, and even ensured that our travel route took us briefly back to India so we could spend two weeks with our families before continuing to Manila.

Thus began the journey—Rome → India → Manila—that would lead me to the most transformative encounter of my life.

3. EAPI in Manila: The Meeting of Two Destinies (Aug 1968 – April 1969)

In August 1968, we arrived at the East Asian Pastoral Institute at Ateneo de Manila University, a Jesuit institution renowned internationally for its pastoral formation. The program brought together around one hundred participants from thirty-six different countriespriests, sisters, and a few laypeople. The diversity of cultures, languages, and spiritual traditions created an atmosphere alive with learning, reflection, and human connection.

1968 EAPI Cohort

It was there, in this rich and international community, that I met André.


André...  He was a young French-Canadian Jesuit: intelligent, deeply spiritual, gentle, and perceptive. He had already lived in the Philippines as a missionary and carried within him a quiet strength and an unusual sensitivity. We attended classes together, prayed together during daily Mass, often sat side-by-side, exchanged homework help, and shared conversations that gradually grew deeper.

Our circle of friends included Sr. Selegrina, Fr. Nebreda (the director of EAPI), Fr. Joe Hubert, Sr. Mary Gilbert, Sr. Scholastica, Sr. Lourdes, Sr. Regina, Sr. Stella, Sr. Augusta, Fr. Leetai, Leo, Fr. Zacharias, Fr. Fontecha, Fr. Uli, Angela, Bernadette, and many others, all involved as professors or students at East Asian Pastoral Institute. The warm and vibrant environment created the perfect setting in which two hearts could recognize each other.

4. Love Awakens: October 3rd, 1968 (“PremAA”)

As the time passed, André and I grew closerfirst through shared interests, then through mutual respect and laughter, and finally through a deepening affection neither of us could deny. Something profound occurred on October 3, 1968, the feast of St. Thérèse, my patron saint.

On that day, André gave me a box of chocolates and simply said, “This is your birthday giftyou may share it with the sisters.” That same evening, for the first time, we embraced. In that moment, our relationship shifted from friendship into a profound lovetender, honest, and transformative. From that day forward, our hearts belonged to one another.

We began exchanging daily notes, sometimes brief, sometimes long and reflective. We met in the library, in Room 105, in André’s room, or quietly during study periods. We walked under the trees and shared our histories, spiritual journeys, hopes, fears, and dreams. We laughed, cried, prayed, and grew closer with each passing day. Our love, still hidden from the world, blossomed in purity and strength.

5. The Heart Pendant: “PremAA”

During Christmas 1968, André planned a trip to Baguio for us, together with our Italian friend Angela, also studying at the EAPI. In the cool mountain air, we attended Christmas Mass at the Little flower noviciate convent, walked through the hills, and visited Sr. Gaudia, a friend of André and the mother-mistress of the Franciscan sisters of the Immaculate-Conception (SFICV) noviciate in Baguio.

Baguio, December 1968

It was in Baguio that we bought two silver chains and a heart-shaped pendant. We engraved them with “PremAA”— “Prem” meaning “love,” combined with “A + A” for André and Angel. This little heart became the symbol of our bond, our secret seal of commitment. When we returned to EAPI, we carried with us not just a piece of jewelry, but a deep certainty of belonging.


6. Our First Wedding: January 1st, 1969

On the morning of January 1, 1969, something sacred unfolded. I went to André’s room, and with God as our only witness, he took my hands and said softly:

“I consider you as my wife.
I unite myself with you forever.”

He placed the silver chain with the heart pendant around my neck. I, in turn, placed the other around his. With that gesture, we became united in spirithusband and wife in the deepest sense, bound by love, fidelity, and the promise to face whatever life would bring us.

It was our hidden wedding, simple and eternal.

7. Growing Pressure and Interrogations

It soon became impossible to conceal our special bond. People at EAPI noticed the closeness between us, and eventually we were questioned separately by Fr. Nebreda and by Sr. Scholastica, mistress of the nuns studying at EAPI. These interrogations were painful and frightening. We felt torn between obedience to our institutions and loyalty to our love.

Still, our hearts did not waver. In his letters André wrote:

“My heart is hurting and ready to explode.”
“God has spoken to me through you.”
“I find in our love the strength to face all tribulations.”
“We will be together forever.”

And I wrote to him:

“My love for you is immeasurable.”
“When I am with you, I feel strong, satisfied, happy, belonged.”
“Nive Na Premawe are one.”

We prayed constantly for guidance, seeking to remain honorable without betraying the truth of what God had placed in our hearts.

8. André’s Watch: “Que chaque minute nous rapproche”

Among the few gifts André gave me was a Seiko watch engraved:

“Que chaque minute nous rapproche”— “May each minute bring us closer.”

The watch was later stolen in the convent in Reddipalem, but the meaning engraved on it proved true. Each minute of our lives, whether together or apart, indeed drew us closer.

9. EAPI Completion and Separation (April 1969)

When the EAPI program concluded, we celebrated Easter 1969 with the community. Soon afterward, Selegrina and I booked our return flight to India, while André prepared to leave for Canada. Neither of us had any personal income; our respective institutions arranged the tickets.

The farewell at the airport was one of the most heartbreaking moments of my life. André cried after my departure, and in his first letter to me he described his sorrow with raw honesty. Though separated by oceans, we remained united in every other way.

We were entering a new chaptera year of physical separation, yet a year of unbroken, enduring love.

Tuesday, January 6, 1970

2. Growing Into a Young Woman

1. The Call to Religious Life

During my adolescence, the Catechist Sisters of St. Ann in Reddipalem played a defining role in my spiritual awakening. When I entered eighth grade, the congregation underwent a historic transition: it became officially indigenous, no longer under Italian administration, and Sr. Enriquetta was appointed the first Indian Mother General. With the encouragement of the Italian parish priest, Fr. Mariani, the sisters nurtured a strong vocation culture among young girls. They instilled in us the belief that the surest and simplest way to reach heaven was through religious life. Innocent, impressionable, and filled with fervent faith, we embraced this message wholeheartedly.

Bala, circa 15 years old

Of the sixteen girls who completed high school in my class, fourteen eventually joined the congregation. Ten entered after ninth grade, and four after tenth gradeI was among the latter. Yet my decision was far from easy. My father, my brother-in-law, my uncle priest Fr. Anandam, and the new parish priest, Fr. Raj, all opposed my entering the convent. They wanted me to continue my studies, fearing I was too young to make such a permanent choice. But deep within, I felt an unmistakable call.

At home, another kind of pressure strengthened my resolve. My grandfather repeatedly spoke of marrying me to my cousin Marreddy. I pleaded with my mother, insisting, “I do not want to marry himor anyone.” This fear of an imposed marriage, coupled with a profound desire to follow St. Thérèse of Lisieux in simplicity and love, pushed me firmly toward religious life.

With the courage of youth and faith, I offered myself to God and to the congregation.

2. Aspirant Life (1957)

In 1957, at the age of sixteen, I entered the novitiate of the Catechist Sisters of St. Ann as an Aspirant. My introduction to religious discipline came quickly. One day, while drawing water outside the novitiate, I spoke to my brother for barely a minute. Immediately I was corrected: “You must not talk to outsiders.” It was a startling lesson in the strictness of the life I had chosenone marked by obedience, separation from family, and complete dedication to the community.

Cousin and Balaaspirants

Within just a month or two, I was sent with another aspirant to St. Anthony’s Convent in Hyderabad, an English-medium school run by the sisters. I was only sixteen, fresh from secondary school, yet entrusted with teaching kindergarten full-time. Sr. Concettina cared for me tenderly, guiding me as I handled a class of sixty lively children aged three to five. To my surprise, I taught well and discovered a natural gift for instruction.

Life was simple but not without its moments of mischief. Once, driven by hunger, my companion and I secretly took candy from the kitchen.

After five months in Hyderabad, we returned to Reddipalem for a period of intense spiritual preparation before formally entering the novitiate. Although I still did not fully grasp what religious life truly entailed, my desire to pursue it remained unwavering.

3. Novice Life (1958–1960)

On January 6, 1958, I received the religious habit and veil, officially becoming a Novice. My new name was Sister Angel Mary Anandam— “Angel” in honor of Fr. Angelo Mariani and “Anandam” in tribute to my uncle priest. Yet in practice, no one called me Anandam; I went simply by “Sister Angel.” I clearly remember my father’s tears that day. “Now my daughter is in prison,” he lamented softly. His grief pierced me, but he accepted my vocation with resignation.

Front row, center: Sister Angel's father
Second row, from right: Sister Angel
cousin sisters

Novice life was challenging, transformative, and deeply formative. Our novice mistress, Sr. Elizabeth, was strict but fair. She trained us rigorously in humility, simplicity, honesty, obedience, silence, and discipline. I learned to pray and work (“Ora et Labora”), to accept corrections and punishments without complaint, and to perform every task with goodwill. As sacristan, I found joy in preparing the chapel, though I also endured periods of harder assignments, such as cleaning the toilets and bathroomsa task that often brought me to tears. Eventually, when elderly Italian priest Fr. Mazzola missed my presence in the sacristy, he asked that I be reassigned there.

Obedience was tested in subtle ways. One day, Sr. Elizabeth asked me to practice silencenot for an hour or a day, but for three full months. When she judged that I had mastered silence, she told me to practice smiling. That instruction, oddly enough, shaped my entire life; the habit of smiling became one of my lasting gifts.

During the novitiate, I also learned music: Gregorian chant, Latin hymns of Masses, feasts, Holy Week, and musical notation reading. I often stood beside Sr. Elizabeth turning pages as she played the organ, and I even taught myself bits of piano.

4. Teaching as a Novice and the Path to Hindi Pandit

Even while living the strict discipline of a novice, I was assigned full-time teaching responsibilities. I taught Grade 2 and was also encouraged to pursue formal studies in Hindi. With no classes, tutors, or instruction, I was simply handed a set of books and told to prepare for the Preveshika exam in six months. I studied on my ownand passed. Every six months thereafter, I repeated the process, completing three levels of Hindi in just a year and a half instead of three years.

Fr. AnandamSister Angelcousin

Recognizing my emerging talent, high school headmistress Sr. Consolathina assigned me to teach Hindi to students in Grades 7 through 10. Some of my Grade 10 students had been my own classmates who had failed twice before. I taught entirely in Hindi, and in the government exams that year, every one of my students passeda remarkable 100% success rate that astonished the school and strengthened my confidence as a teacher.

Among my students was my younger brother, Lourdhu Marreddy, then in Grade 7. These were also years of cherished friendship. Sr. Bethina, an intelligent and affectionate companion, became especially dear to me, though the novice mistress discouraged close attachments.

Eventually, I completed the full Hindi Visharada Courses and started the first stage of Hindi Pandit course, equivalent to a master’s degreecovering Hindi literature, Sanskrit, linguistics, and pedagogywhich I completed after the noviciate.

I accomplished all this while living a life of prayer, teaching full-time, carrying out sacristy duties, and adhering to the rigorous norms of the novitiate.

5. First Profession (January 6, 1960)

After two intense years of formation, I professed my first vows of Poverty, Chastity, and Obedience on January 6, 1960. Our entire batch took vows together, marking the end of our novitiate and the beginning of full consecrated life. By this time, Sr. Elizabeth had softened toward me, showing appreciation for my sincerity and abilities. Though still young and not fully mature in meditation, I felt deeply at peace and grateful for the spiritual grounding I had received.

6. Teacher and Assistant Headmistress (1961–1964)

In 1961, I was transferred to Ramnagar School, where I flourished as both teacher and administrator. I formed warm relationships with my students and was entrusted by headmistress Sr. Ernestina to serve as assistant headmistress while continuing to teach full-time. Among my students was Anasuya, who would remain a lifelong friend. I also formed a meaningful friendship with Ratnam, a Brahmin lay teacher of great intelligence and kindness, though time eventually separated us.

By 1964, I had completed all remaining stages of the Hindi Pandit program and stood as a fully qualified Hindi scholar and an experienced teacher. My early twenties were marked by dedication, discipline, spiritual growth, and the discovery of my lifelong vocation for teaching.

Monday, January 5, 1970

1. Roots and Early Life in India

1. The Journey Towards Reddipalem

Before Bala’s story can truly unfold, we must return to the deeper roots of Bala’s familyto that red sun-warmed land of Andhra Pradesh where the lives of ordinary villagers were shaped by courage, faith, and quiet determination.

Among those families were the Catholic Reddys of the Guntur region, heirs to an old agricultural tradition and guardians of a faith embraced across generations.

Their migration to newly forming villages such as Reddipalem, where Bala would later be born, was neither accidental nor merely practical. It was a deliberate movement of hopea search for a place where their families could grow in dignity, stability, and spiritual freedom.

In the years preceding Bala’s birth, the lands around Guntur had become crowded with multiplying families. Many Catholic Reddy families, seeking new possibilities, moved inland to find affordable farmland where their labour and perseverance would truly bear fruit.

Reddipalem became one such destination: an open landscape waiting for those who wished to build a future with their own hands.

But land alone did not draw them. These families longed to live within a cohesive Catholic community, where faith would not be a source of social tension but a foundation for solidarity. Catholic missions, active in the region at the time, encouraged precisely this kind of community: villages centered on education, health, and mutual support.

There was also a practical dimension to this migration. The Reddy community had long been recognized for its expertise in tobacco and chilli farming, crops that required skill, timing, and intimate knowledge of the soil.

The soil of Reddipalem was exceptionally well suited for tobacco cultivationits texture, drainage, and climate offering the ideal conditions for a product that sustained many families for generations. This natural advantage strengthened the appeal of the area and contributed to the economic stability of the new settlement.

Reddipalem, chilli, and the churchfrom home roof

Thus, Reddipalem became more than farmland. It was a place where the Reddys could cultivate not only tobacco, chilli, and rice, but also peace, autonomy, and a renewed sense of community life. Away from the social tensions, they found a space where families could live with greater equality, supported by shared faith and collective resilience.

Their journey was also a way of preserving identity. By leaving Guntur, they carried with them their Reddy traditions, their language, and their sense of honourenriched by a Christian faith that shaped their daily life and aspirations. For their children, they imagined a future that united pride in their heritage with openness to service, compassion, and education.

It was in this environmenta village born from hope and built through hard work and solidaritythat Bala’s childhood took root.

Reddipalem was a place where every family carried with pride the story of their ancestors and their perseverance; where red earth absorbed the laughter of children, the rhythm of prayer and the cycle of the seasons.

This is where the story begins.

A story emerging from a courageous migration, woven from faith, labour, and love, carrying the quiet light of generations who prepared the path ahead.

2. A Dawn in Thammadapalli: Birth and Beginnings (1941)

I was born on February 4, 1941, in Thammadapalli village, in the home of my maternal grandparents in Warangal district, Telangana. One week later, on February 11, I was baptized and given the name Bala Theresa Singareddy. My paternal grandparents, Singareddy Showreddy and Lourdhamma migrated from Guntur with family, and settled in Reddipalem village, in Warangal district. My father, Chinnapu Reddy, was their only son among four daughtersa beloved and unique position in a family where two of his sisters, Sr. Scholastica and Sr. Anna Theresia, joined the JMJ congregation in Guntur. A third sister, Showramma, also entered religious life but later left, married briefly, became widowed within six months, and spent the rest of her life with my grandparents and parents. The youngest sister, Agnesamma, married and raised nine children.

On my mother’s side, my grandparents were Dodda Kiriti Reddy and Mariamma, also from Thammadapalli. They had one son, Innareddy, who would father nine children, and two daughters: Gnanamma, the mother of six, and Chinnammamy mother. Our families were rooted in the land and in faith, their histories intertwined with the soil, customs, and kinship networks of Telangana.

1st row from right to left: Bala (6 years old)MaryLourdhucousincousincousin
2nd row from right:  Maternal grand-fatherfather (Chinnapa)Paternal grand-fatheruncle
3rd row from right to left: mother (Chinnamma)aunty auntyuncle

3. The First Family Circle: Becoming Ten

When I entered the world, our household consisted of eight people: my grandparents Showreddy and Lourdhamma, my great-grandfather Vatti Kiriti Reddy, my widowed aunt Showramma, my parents, my sister Mary (born in 1938), and myself. Over the next years we grew into a family of ten with the births of my brothers. In 1946, my brother Lourdhu Marreddy arriveda long-awaited joy for my grandfather, who dearly hoped for a boy to continue the family name. Two years later, in 1948, my youngest brother Raja Reddy was born. These ten people formed the intimate circle of my childhood, a world of affection, tradition, and steady rhythms.

4. Prosperity and Status in Reddipalem

My paternal grandmother Lourdhamma was the only daughter of Vatti Kiriti Reddy and Annamma, inheriting all their property. Because my father was also an only son, he inherited the full estate of his own parents. My mother, coming from an affluent family, contributed a substantial dowry. As a result, our household was considered the wealthiest in Reddipalem by the standards of village life.

Stories passed down spoke of the grandeur of my parents’ wedding, celebrated over three daysan extravagance unheard of in our clan. My maternal grandparents gifted saris to every woman in the village, a gesture that people remembered for years. Our home was the best in the village, surrounded by at least one hundred acres of fertile land. We had servants for both the fields and the household, and we were the only family to own horses. The Italian parish priest even insisted that his daily supply of milk and yogurt come from our home, convinced that it was the cleanest and most reliable.

Bala's father and mother

5. A Childhood Surrounded by Family: The Circle of 43

I grew up in a world rich with people. My parents had four children—Mary, myself, Lourdhu Marreddy, and Raja Reddy—and we were surrounded by a vast web of cousins. From Aunt Agnesamma came nine cousins; from Uncle Innareddy, another nine; from Aunt Gnanamma, six more. Together with our own family of ten and the spouses of aunts and uncles, our close family circle numbered forty-three.

Beyond this core were relatives numbering in the hundreds—the families with extended branches of my grandparents and parents, with their cousins and their children from two generations whom we met often. Then came the neighbours and friends. My childhood unfolded within this embrace of people who cared for me, watched over me, and shaped my sense of belonging.

6. Our House in Reddipalem: A World of Its Own

Our home was a small universe, alive with fruit trees—orange, papaya, guava and pomegranateand animals: buffalo, cows, oxen, chickens, and horses. We had our own drinking-water well and another well that served the villagers. Full-time and seasonal workers tended the land, while my grandfather and father, both respected, were addressed as “Patel.”

My father was gentle, generous, artistic, and deeply kind. He sang beautifully, played the harmonium, memorized poetry, and performed in village dramas. He lent money freely and rarely expected repayment, often losing large amounts but never losing his peace or his instinct to help others. My mother, in contrast but in complement, was the pillar of household and field, rising at dawn to milk the buffaloes, preparing food for both family and workers, managing the land, and welcoming every visitor with dignity and hospitality. She carried most of the responsibility, yet she never complained. From her, I learned compassion, discipline, and the quiet strength of service.

In front of the home: Family and servantsBala is the nun

7.  Village Life: Reddipalem and Its People

Reddipalem was a remarkable village, marked by a tall church tower that could be seen from afar. It had two parish priestsone Italian, one Indianand was home to the Mother House and Novitiate of the Catechist Sisters of St. Ann. There were a school, boarding house, and dispensary; Catholic culture shaped the rhythm of village life and the openness of its people.

Beyond the Christian Reddy core of the village lived the Harijan (Dalit) families in a separate section with modest dwellings. As a child, I did not yet understand caste; I merely obeyed the elders who instructed me to bathe after playing with Harijan children, unaware of the social structures behind such rules.

8. Childhood Memories and Schooling

My earliest memories include surprising everyone by speaking many words at six months, living for a short time in Garnepally near our farmland, and visiting the village "chelam", the communal water source. I remember the tenderness of my father singing “Lali Lali” at church and the sorrow of losing my grandmother.

I began my schooling in Reddipalem, studying Kindergarten and Grades 1 through 5 there. My teachersSr. Judith, Sr. Regina, and Sr. Annunciatawere women I admired deeply. In Grade 3 I learned Urdu, until the curriculum changed to Hindi. During this period my mother fell ill with tuberculosis and was hospitalized for six months. I missed her terribly, and her return home was one of the tenderest moments of my young life.

Bala, circa 6 years old

My sister Mary married at the age of fourteena love marriage, something very rare in those days.

9. Middle School, High School, and Awakening

Grades 6 and 7 took me back to Kurnool, where I forged close friendships, particularly with Rosy Yasaggari, and navigated the cultural shifts that followed the merger of Andhra and Telangana. Boarding life was harsh, yet it instilled resilience and independence.

For Grades 8 to 10 I returned to Reddipalem, where I excelled academically, became a school leader, wrote poems and even a drama, and grew under the guidance of excellent teachers. I passed the State high school exam with top marks. During these years I experienced my first menstruation and deepened the friendships that had begun earlier. My religious faith also intensified, becoming a vital part of my identity.

10. Family, Faith, and Daily Life

My father continued to be a profound influencegentle, musical, generous, and unwavering in his principles, even as unreturned loans reduced our wealth significantly. My mother remained tireless in her service to the family and the poor. My sister Mary and I shared many struggles during our mother’s illness.

My brother Lourdhu Marreddy grew into a talented singer, later becoming a choir leader and village Sarpanch. He married Gethrutha. My younger brother Raja Reddy, who had missed much maternal affection in early childhood as my mother was sick, faced more difficulties in life. He married Anthonamma, and we later adopted his daughter Sunita as our own.

Our extended family, including priests like Bishop Shoury, Fr. Anandam, Fr. Thomas, and numerous relatives from many branches, enriched my youth with their presence and affection.

11. The Influence of the Sisters of St. Ann

The Sisters of St. Ann shaped my life deeply. By Grade 10, guided especially by Sr. Enriquetta and supported by the parish priest, I felt a strong call to religious life. Out of sixteen girls in my class, grade 10, fourteen would eventually enter the conventten after Grade 9 and four after Grade 10. I wanted to join sooner, after grade 9, but I had to wait until puberty.

Despite objections from my father, my brother-in-law, my uncle priest, and the new parish priest, Fr. Raj, my resolve never wavered. I dreamt of becoming like St. Thérèse of Lisieuxsimple, humble, obedient, and devoted. In 1957, at the age of sixteen, I entered the Catechist Sisters of St. Ann as an Aspirant, beginning a journey that would shape the rest of my life.

Sunday, January 4, 1970

PROLOGUE



There are moments in life when time seems to pause, and memory rises like a gentle tide—soft, steady, carrying with it the fragments of who we once were and the dreams that shaped us. When I look back across the decades of my life, I see not a collection of separate events, but a tapestry woven with quiet threads: love, faith, courage, sacrifice, commitment and grace.

My journey began in the red soil of Reddipalem, in a home where generosity was lived, not spoken. I was a child of simplicity, of open fields and prayerful mornings, of parents whose strength came not from wealth but from integrity. Our days unfolded to the gentle rhythm of dawn prayers, the fragrance of boiling rice, and the harmonious sounds of cattle bells and birds echoing through our village. Reddipalem was more than a place; it was a community of relationships and traditions, where neighbors became family and values were carried quietly from one generation to the next.

I did not know then how far life would carry me—across oceans, into convent walls, through classrooms and countries, into the heart of another soul who would become my destiny. My parents, Singareddy Chinnapa Reddy and Chinnamma, whose honesty, simplicity and devotion shaped our home, instilled in me the importance of humility, compassion, and service. Their partnership, built on respect and hard work, was the foundation upon which I learned to love, to act with integrity, and to persevere.

My childhood overflowed not with material abundance, but with the riches of emotional security and unconditional love. The warmth of my mother’s hands as she guided me through daily tasks, the encouragement of my father to pursue learning, and the constant support from siblings and neighbors gave me the strength and resilience to embrace both joy and hardship. The church anchored our community, and the wisdom of elders offered spiritual guidance as I searched for meaning and purpose.

As the years passed, each chapter of my life—every celebration, every sorrow, every unanswered question—carried me gently toward the path I was meant to walk. These formative experiences in Reddipalem gave me the confidence to cross oceans and build a new life in unfamiliar lands, rooted always in the lessons of those early mornings.

This book is a story of gratitude—for my family, for faith, for love, and for the mission that shaped our lives. It is a tribute to the enduring legacy of parents and mentors, to the steadfast partnership of my husband, to my children whose presence brings optimism and perspective, to relatives, and to the countless friends and companions whose encouragement offered comfort along the way. Above all, it is a reflection on the quiet strength that comes from walking in faith, serving with compassion, and loving without reservation.

As you turn these pages, I invite you to walk with me through memory, through love, through faith—to discover the quiet threads that have shaped my journey. May you find in these stories not only a record of what has passed, but inspiration and insight for your own path, wherever it may lead.